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"I'm grateful that I didn't do it" list

I'm grateful that: I didn't call him to tell him that it's always been him. I didn't ask him about Singapore's must-go places. I didn't let my friends know about my yearning for him. I didn't give any effort to someone who just gave me breadcrumbs and confused me. I didn't ask him out (again) to avenge his 'kindness'. I'm so grateful because Allah always saves me again and again. He saved my dignity and guided me to control myself to give my purest heart only to someone who truly deserves it. Nb: this context refers to many subjects and sequences.

Stuckkk

First thing first, hayiii!  28 tuh..... terdengar sangat tuwir yh kalo diucapkan. Dan yang bikin gue resah adalah... gue merasa kalo soul gue tuh masih kayak kuliah gitu. Atau minimal baru lulus kuliah. -- Lagi seliweran di TL gue yang melabelkan Taylor Swift tuh masih stuck in highschool era and she is the oldest teenager. Terus gue kayak.... oh wow. Kita tuh gabisa mengekspreksikan apa yang kita rasain karena umur ya? Bahwa apa-apa yang kita mau tunjukkin ke dunia harus relevan dengan usia pada umumnya. Karena kalo engga? Artinya, lo masih stuck dan ga dewasa. Karena hal tersebut, gue jadi mikir berkali-kali kalau mau upload sesuatu di Instagram.... sesimpel mau upload lirik lagu aja, gw takut. Temen gue udah punya anak lagi bingung mau sekolahin di mana dan gue masih riweuh sama lirik lagu buat ngode.  -- Siang tadi pas jam istirahat, gue dan temen gue yang halangan makan bareng. Dia cerita kalau dia mellow di sahur pertamanya sebagai istri. Dia lagi halangan dan harus tete...